What to speak..What to blog!! ??

I feel like a person who is standing on the top of a mountain..silently looking at the massive audience.. full of the desire to speak...full of energy...but unable to decide where to start from? unable to give priority to the mental contents..unable to give the very first push....Its been so long that i am here on the blogosphere but cant post anything cause i dont know where to start from.. no idea at all... completely confused

I want to speak..I want to type..I want to see my ideas , my thoughts turning into words through my typing fingures..but then which idea..?? which thought?? Sharing life becomes too much a trouble sometimes ... I guess i am not ready...I want to share things but i am afraid ..of whom??.. i dont know... or may be i am not afraid at all.. Perhaps i am having the same feeling which people usually have before going on a stage in front of an audience..I guess that is the most accurate representation of my position. I am just hesitating... and the only way i can overcome it , is ...by taking a start..

so here I go..with nothing preplanned in mind..i am sitting here in my office ..The official time is over..had been working on an assignment for quite sometime and now I am free a bit ..

but i am getting confused again.. What to write... Whih topic to chose..Should i go about my job..Should i go about my life..should i go about my friends... What to choose and why to choose that.. but then... since its just a start ..let me start with any random thing...

Let me start with my friends.. People i really cherish in my life.. Let me talk about bodi... Kashif Bhatti...Waqar Nabi.. Momin.. Dasa.. Alvi..Rizwan Pirzada..Saleem Gul.. Farhan..Noman.. Yasir.. My mother ,... Aman.. I start thinking and find that there are so many.. Names keep coming in mind.. they keep popping in..although many of them wont recognize me as their friend anymore as much time has passed since we were last in contact... but they remain in my thoughts as people who i once interacted with...and being somewhat unsocial i happen to have a very small circle of people around me..so my relationships become very precious for me..

I want to write about all my friends...and i know when i will write ..i will miss many.. but i must not let the fear of the effect stop me from writing about them..That is a hesitation that i have to overcome..

but hey!! whats the time?? Its 6:42..I have to catch my Taekwondo class at 7:30 ... joined it to reduce my weight..had been two months..and there is no different in that bulk of mass that I carry above my waistline... i guess all those people who were giving my advices on reducing my diet were right.. I should reduce more...i.e although i already changed it from "overdieting" to "enough dieting"...it needs to go one step below.. and that means a decrease in the revenue that Rahat Bakery is generating from my regular visits.. :)

bye..me getting late for my class..
will write again later..

My details

Ok...now that i am getting some idea of blogging..I am going to start by writing about me.. I have read a lot both in favour and against blogging..and I am going to blog as an experiment to develop my own opinion about it.

My name is Sameer Shaida Durrani..and people have this habit of reading the middle part of my name as 'Shahida' thinking of me as a lady..but let me clear that i am a man..am 25 years old.. am nearly 5'9'' tall...my weight keeps on changing so i dont keep track of my weight very much.. :)

I belong to Peshawar..a city of Pakistan which has been proposed for Nobel Peace Prize.... u can check the link for details.. I have a negative opinion about this proposal but I will prefer to reserve it.. :)

I spent my very early childhood in cities like Islamabad and Karachi but I studied in Peshawar mostly.. ..After 12 years of eduction , i made it to a very good Engineering institute of Paksitan...The Ghulam Ishaq Khan Institute of Engineering Sciences and Technology (GIKI).. I did Bachelors in Electronic Engineering from GIKI and i guess I really fell in love with the place during my studies... There are some places which you can never get out of your mind..GIKI is one such place for me.

After my engineering, I did different jobs... but most of the times i was involved with teaching...and I guess in future i will join teaching as a career...

Currently, I am working at Pakistan Telecom Authority as an Assistant Director...I am in Islamabad Headquarter... My duty is to deal with different issues in the Engineering Department of the PTA... My boss wont appreciate it if i write any thing about my job responsibilites...

I think that in order to develop a good understanding of life one should reflect one's idea about it more often... I have started blogging with this thing in mind..I want to refine my idea about different issues in life...and i really appreciate getting corrected by people, only if they use the rarely used tool known as logic..

My first blog ever

This is my first blog ever. so lets see how things go...... am just trying it..............