Friday, December 01, 2006

Sameer is working in America

I am at office.. at the Daimler Chrysler's office.. Its all silent. i am just hearing the sound of people tapping the keyboard keys . they are all busy. I am free and am waiting for someone to leave so that i may leave too..  I dont have my car yet... :(

Its night.. It was raining outside in morning.. not sure wether its raining now.. work is there... and i should be the last person to complain as i am the one with lowest amount of work load.. but still.. I complain..there is too much work...even if i am free after 13 hours of work

my stomach is so full... Had an omelete in morning...with apple juice..then had fruity yougurt -Banana and strawberry mix . Its tasty and You can find the fruit at the bottom of the cup... had a chicken with tomoatoe in lunch.. it wasnt tasty.. Just a plain chiken piece with some tomatoe on top of it and some boiled vegetables along it.. Ali bhai had turky pot... that was better.. it tasted like the usual curry food that we have in Pakistan... that was tasty ...Food here usually contains boiled items..no spices..

Had a green apple later in evening .that was tasty. and then there were lot of choclates.. There is a very kind lady in my project who usually brings left overs from the Office Parties for us... Yesterday , she took us to a party left over areas..where i ate a lot..Today shebrought choclates for us from a meeting.. we ate so many of them.. .. and i am feeling so full of choclates right now.. :).. i may not have dinner tonight...

I dont like this growing tummy  of mine now. day before  yesterday , i broke my trouser's button.. now thats a clear signal of the coming storm.. I am eating too much here.. much of it for the sake of TRYING it.. but now I want to reduce even though i am not fat by the local standards.. i mean, in America a person like me is not  considered fatat all.. There are real FAT people here.. and oh my gosh!! there are too many of them..and oh my gosh! they come in all genders, shapes ,sizes and colours.. :).. so i am happy that i got my name removed from the category of FAT people without doing any effort.. :)

Oh.. and i got a mobile now.. bought it on black friday..but it wasnt working uptil now.. got it working yesterday.. if you wanna call me email me and i will send you my number.. :) .. but  what the hell.. most of the times i am unreachable... the place where i work is in the basement... and there are no mobile signals here.. Telecommunication system is not very good here.. I feel Telecom system is better in Pakistan...Its cheaper and is proper.. Here i buy a calling card for 5 dollars .. use it to call home.. it claims that i can talk for more than an hour.. but it always ended up giving me some 15-20 minutes..  I have used Long Distance Calling Cards in Pakistan, they mess up too but not as much as these American cards..

What else...the weather report says that it will snow here on friday..

oh and the work report says that i will be coming to work on weekends too... Probably there wont be any free weekends till Christmas..

I am feeling sleepy.. there are talks now in office.. my project people are working. i am not..i dont know what they are working on.. but i am here and waiting and wishing them to leave.. cause i wanna leave too but i need a ride to my home..

 Oh! Chuck is leaving..me goes to catch him.. :)

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Sameer has reached US

so i reached US on morning of 15 Nov. I landed on New York JFK Air Port.. where my entrance in US had to be registered with the US security department ... It is something that i was very scared of from the very start.. They usually take a long time to check non-US citizens.. and it is recommended to have a gap of atleast 4 hours before the next flight from JFK to Detroit because the time taken for checking is usually that long...but in my case, my flight was the only flight that landed on the airrport.. so i was kinda lucky as there were no long lines..i was the first one in my line..then the whole  procedure went quite smoothly, i was all clear in some 45 minutes...great!!!!...

 

but then i had nothing to do.. so i just roamed around the airport...checked my next flight terminal , got the boarding pass from there.. I didnt checked in then as there was no point going inside cause they dont let you come out once you go in..

I started feeling tired very soon.. so after having lunch , (Rice with Sweet and Sour Chicken) I slept on the bench for a while. My flight was near 2 , i started going towards my terminal near 1:20.. i thought it was a reasonable time for me to reach the GATE ..... I was wrong..

In the Airport , there is an air train that takes you from one terminal to another..There i asked the lady at duty about my terminal ..she asked me about my flight and when i told her...She exclaimed.."Hey you have already missed your flight".. Scared!!! i ran... i ran to my terminal ...reached there.. but oh there was a checking first ...a complete checking that required removal trouser belt, shoes and laptop from its bag...err..they wasted my time.. then i ran again ..at a very good speed.. but even then when i reached the gate, i was informed that my flight had been closed... I was late by minutes only..

:(

 

 

i then had to take another flight..... blah blah blah!!!!

 

 

(writing the rest of it on 29 NOV)

 

well .. i didnt get enough time to update my blog.. the story continues.. I reached to Detroit near 9. where my team welcomed me at the airport.. Then i was taken to my hotel after food... My hotel is different than the other team mates.. cause there was no vacant room in thier hotel.. so they are staying at Marriot Spring Suites and I am staying at Embassy Suites.. and i beleive my hotel is better...Its two big rooms.. and the bed room has got a real big window from where i can see the highway .. so i really enjoy seeing Amreeka from there.. :).. Detroit is a cool place.. both in terms of exclaimation and the weather conditions..  :)

 

What else... We were not allowed to have a free weekend the first weekend of my arrival... and then all of a suddent there was this four day leave of Thanks Giving in which we had a trip to NewYork..

NEWYORK

NEW YORK is a city full of people..

we visited Empire State Building. we wanted to go on top of the building but the que was two hour long so we dropped the idea.. we planned to see the Statue of Liberty but we didnt have enough time to reach to that area from where we can atleast view it.. :( .. We went to see the Rock Feller Center, its a high building and they too have an observatory on top of building to see the whole Nework.. there werent too many people in que as its a new observatory and not every one knows about it..

 

Thats it.. There is too much that i want to write.. but i cant.. i dont have time. I have to call so many people..i cant.. i dont have the calling card ..I got a prepaid mobile connection last Friday..It has not been activated yet..seems that Telecom Services are better in Pakistan...I dont think I will be getting my own car soon cause i am a bit afraid of driving here...besides i havent driven automatic cars before..but i guess that shouldnt be a much problem.. The only problem is to shift to the left handside driving ...and the new kinda traffic signals/rules...

I havent enjoyed much healthy time here.. I have been coughing for so many days...My sleep is not proper yet.. I am still underslept..

 

People are really nice here...you usually find strangers greeting you and giving you a smile.. Most of the people happen to have a sense of humor.. a very well developed sense of humour... They are friendly and cooperative..  

In few days , i dont think i will have any time for internet... even right now i am typing this all because Informatica (software that i work on) crashed and it locked the mapping that i was working on .. Somebody is trying to get it fixed.. and i am making use of the time to write...

Friday, November 17, 2006

Sameer goes to US Part 2.(On flight : Dubai to NewYork - date:15 November Time: i dont know)

I am on my flight to New York.. (uff!! i am so happy to write it).. its a 14 hours + flight .. I have never ever had such a long travel before..not even a land travel..

I guess i didnt write much about the reason of my travel in the part 1 of this post.. here it goes: I am working on a project for an american company DAIMLER CHRSYLER FINANCIAL SERVICES. Its a financial services provider of a car manufacturing company.. It was/is because of this project that my online life is not active for a long time. Since August , I am continuosly busy..but oh thank God (IIE) , atleast i was called onsite .....  From a pessimist point of view, this is not very great, cause i had been working like a donkey offsite till now.. (even my weekends and legal holidays were on) .. and now that there is rest on the offsite team and the work load focus has shifted to the onsite team, i have been called onsite..the onsite team has already started working on weekends from now on.. Its going to be a difficult job i tell you...I am seriously expecting that i will fall ill soon..But from an optimist point of view , HEY MAN!! i am going to America ...  i dont care what they make me do there.. :)

[If you think that the words Pessimist and Optimist have been wrongly placed, then sorry.. I know the meaning of both but i am not always sure which means what..so kindly make that adjustment yourself for your 'READING PLEASURE']

 

In recent past, a few things happened which i missed to blog, thanks to the my project... Let me just recall..

My Family Life:

 My sister had a very major life/death operation...Doctors who operated her said they would not have been able to save her had she been half an hour late.. it all happened on her Eid Days in Ireland.. She is fine now .. is resting now..not as much as my mother and I want her to .. I just hope she will heal and recover soon..

Personally i feel my bonds with my family is getting stronger now....Its a new change... Its a new me.... I just dont feel very good to see my parents' condition now...The fact that they are old is very apparent now..They too have realized this and thats why they are urging me to get married soon.. but now with my sister's recent condition they have once again forgot about my marriage plans.. :)

Anyways, i have also started feeling very social.. I am very excited on my travel ,  but i am also feeling bad for missing a few things like seeing my sister this december when she will come to Pakistan, Missing a good friend's wedding this weekend, missing meeting my very good friend and an ex-mentor who will come from France to Pakistan for a few days, missing the new-hire party at my office for which the office people have already collected money from me :(..

 

My Psychic Life:

My Psychic life is improving now.. Finally i have started picking words what the other peoples are about to say..It doesnt happen all the time..The frequency is once a week ..but the point is that it has started happening ..now when i am not meditating any more.... Oh! and I had a dream in which i saw myself present in US ..this dream was out of blue.. i mean there were no chances of me going to US  .. and exactly that same day my tech lead told me there are chances that i will be flying to US.

 

My Princess Life:

Princess has started behaving better now.. I had no problem in Ramzan .. but just last week , the generator belt was broken.. I have now posted a FOR SALE notice on it and after my return from US, i will be selling it through newspapers ads.. I was definately going to give this ad on this sunday's JANG.. but i could not do it because of this suddent travel. Oh, and i found the problem atlast.. It wasnt the car all this time.. it was the mechanic..

 

Office and Travel Arrangements:

There have been too much work in office..There was no official leave for me to prepare for my travel. I was assigned work as if i was not to do any travel preparations at all. It was really troublesome getting my International Driving License, and a air breaker jacket and other important travel arrangements.. The most difficult thing was to get things done from Office.... I had to inform a few people at office about my travel and had to ask them to permit me a few things like increase in credit card limit, travel advance money etc. etc. but things went at a pace slower than my expectation..I hope i will receive all the approvals and the money soon..

Back to the present:

The plane shakes like shakira every now and then.. but its a comfortable flight.. An Emirates flight it is..Had heard so much about it..Food was good..I dont know why arent there any AEROPLANE FOOD restaurants in the world.. I watched ICE AGE 2 .. didnt enjoy it very much as I was not feeling very well.. but its a good movie.. I would have enjoyed it more had i been fine.. I am sleepless for past few days...I just hope my sleeplessness and my happiness of going to America ---Comibined, they wont trigger any thing.. I just hope my depression will remain in control.. though i wont mind getting slightly maniac :) ..trust me...Its a great feeling when you are a maniac..:) ... Oh..i just saw the map of the flight, and they showed Tampere in the map.. Bodz!!! I just passed your area!!..and hey man!! i am really sorry for not being able to socialize much with you..

 I am losing the sense of time and space.. what is the time here..what is the time in Pakistan..is it night outside..i dont know much..Will be writing something on my pocket notebook ..

The laptop battery is going down.. so me goes ..

And yeah!! i have decided that i will write my blogs in a single go..  the WRITER inside me doesnt let me post things without a million reviews and tweaking... but i am tired of so much reviewing of text.. So now you are going to read my raw thoughts..

This is my first post through Windows Live Writer.. Lets see how it appears on my blog...

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Sameer goes to US

I am on karachi Airport ..waiting for my flight to DUBAI.. will be going to New York from Dubai and then from New York to Detriot , Michigan....


YAHOO!!!!

I am so excited about it..

They told me 5 days ago that i have to reach US on 16 Nov. Happy i was but travelling has always been a tensed thing to me..and international travel.. come on man thats a MEGA tension..

so since 9 Nov, i have not been able to sleep properly either because of some stupid sleeping arrangements + happiness. The first night i kept thinking of US... was completely unable to sleep.. I am still somewhat suffering from the sleep loss.. You know , i do crazy thing when my sleep is not complete... I always have to take GOOD care of my sleep wake cycle.... and i never manage to do it.. :)

Past months were very busy.. Too much work.. Too much work... i , at last, had started missing my life.. was kinda bored of my work routine too... was kinda frustrated because of that one irritating person of my project team who works a lot more than me in the same time.. Living with extra efficient people is not new to me.. I have tolerated many of them in GIKI.. i still remember people who used to study double than me in half the time i used to study .. (that multplies their efficiency with 4).. but this guy, this irritating guy I am talking about .... does not irritate me with his efficiency but with his talk...he talks, and talks and talks..and i really thank Gid whenever he leaves...

Shit.. i have to catch my fligh...

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Busy again

I am busy again.. Last two weeks went good.. My trips to Rahat continued.. :) ...

NEW THINGS

I watched the play Dally in the Dark , it was great... First play of Shah Shrabeel that i really liked ... .. was really funny... An old friend of mine was the Assistant Director of the play..I just hope he will offer me some good role (probably leading) in his upcoming play... :).. Uff!! i am so full of talent..

Oh!.. i bought a new mobile.. along with a new SIM..., Warid number..its so great.. now i am able to easily talk with anyone right while sitting in my office or in my home.. I am also keeping that pathetic mobilink connection as well.. but it is there just for the number.. Warid is really great.. Its very cheap and the sound quality is great...


PRINCESS

What else .. yeah!! Princess has gone really bad.. i gave it to the meachanic last saturday.. got it back this thursday..i.e it stayed with mechanic for 6 days.. :)...... Will start efforts to sell it soon.... i was coming to office yesterday, took a turn on a square...and when i had turned enough , the steering refused to come back.. as a result the wheels remained in the turned position.. and my car kinda started circling on the road.. :).. A motorcycle bumped into the car..and there were some angry screeching sounds of a few cars.... it could have become a really BIG accident but thank God nothing big happened...


OFFICE

Office work has become more demanding.. :(.. i even came this saturday (yesterday) and worked till 12:30 (midnight i.e) .. and now i am here again...on sunday... :(


HEALTH

I hope to reduce some weight this Ramadan.. but its just that these days.. my old desire to eat good and to eat great (in terms of amount) is coming back.. and in every Ramadan there are so many parties to attend.. waisay i am looking forward to have iftaris in office.. Thanks to the project deadlines..

FUN TIME

I have recently started watching FULL METAL ALCHEMIST these days.. its good...and i have also started playing Diablo 2.. but what the hell i cant install on my system at home.. ... :(... I told a guy in my office that i have starcraft at home and he got really excited about it.. I brought it for him the next day and then we had a 1 on 1.. which I won after having a tough time.. :).. I enjoyed it a lot.. I wish i could play it on BNET... Bodz! you are so lucky that you are able to play it on BNET..


ok.. me goes to home..to prepare for my first Sehri..

Monday, September 11, 2006

A weekend spent well

This weekend i got my room cleaned.. it was a four hour procedure.. in which i removed all the stuff from my room.. got it cleaned..then got the mat cleaned.. then placed things inside with a different setting.. Now i cant watch the TV when i am sitting on bed... A stupid configuration that i will change soon...

I had Rahat ka Pizaa on both the days of the weekend.. Rahat.. my old love .. is coming back to life.. :)..

and i had a fancy hair cut.. Razar hair cut...a cut in which the hairdresser uses a razor instead of a scissor to cut the hairs.. This give a Rough look (How? i dont know..the hairdresser told me so) .This new hairstyle requires shining gel to give a good look but i do not use gel, so the style is not looking as great as it should... so i do not look Rough .(whatever it means)..

The weekend was spent well.. i enjoyed it.. i also watched Xmen III.. [Spoilers ahead] didnt like it much.. There was no point in killing Xavier.. He didnt die a heroic death...and there was no point in killing Cyclops either..and there wasnt much contribution of the phoenix idea to the whole story plot.... The whole story was ok without her.. Khair.. the effects were good.. i was only happy for rogue for losing her powers... :)... She deserved it... :)

and there was a mouse in my bathroom's commode (WC) this morning.. an alive mouse ..or may be rat...or whatever... it was trying to come out but was slipping again and again.....i hope it wont be there when i will reach home..

Friday, September 08, 2006

3 more parties

The parties never ended...

6th Septemeber... Wednesday

On Wednesday...We , the whole project team , went to Pappa Sallys for lunch.. to celeberate the birthday of the youngest person in our batch.... on his expense offcourse... :) We had very very tasty Pizzas.. The Pappa Sally's Pizza's are a hell lot better than Pizza Huts'..

7th Septemeber.. Thursday

A friend of mine is leaving NCR.. He was in my NCR batch... He has been offered a very good post from an other company and so he is leaving ...We gave him a Lunch at Lasania...

8th Septemeber.. Friday

Today , i enjoyed some left over food .. :)... Some Goras visited NCR this week..and food was served to them in our recently constructed Cafeteria.. The food services were provided by Trimutsu.. A new restaurant in blue Area which i havent tried yet....but i have heard its very expensive.. The food was great..


I FOUND SOMETHING

Well.. I guess i havent mentioned on my blog yet that i lost some 7 Kgs recently.. but OH thanks! to all these parties.. i have gained it all again... :)...i have found what i lost..... :)

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

Four days of Party

Last week was full of parties.... All related to my office life..

Thursday 31 Agust

First there was a gathering on the expense of our Program Managers.. At Planet X.. but we didnt watch any movie there... :(..it was just food..

Friday 1st Sept

Then there was a Reward Acheievement Celeberation the very next day... A new tradition has started here to celebrate the acheivements of people every month..

Saturday 2nd Sept

It was Fauzan's Waleema on Saturday..He is a part of my ETL team.. He was lucky to get his days off right at the climax time of the project....... I reached on his Walima at a time when most of the people had already left.. Thanks to my princess.. the tyre punctured on way..I hate changing tyres... Luckily the spare tyre was fine.. (Last time i had a tyre puncture and the spare tyre was found punctured too)... but unluckily i was unable to pull the tyre out.. It took me some 15 minutes just to pull the tyre out of its place from my car's trunk..the CNG kit installed there provides too little a space for the tyre to come out.. and i had to exert all my super power to pull it out..

but that was only one hard part.. the other was when i tried to unscrew the nuts of the punctured tyre.. I kept trying to unscrew them for some 15 minutes but they remained tight.. The poor me then asked a Taxi driver for help. The guy parked his car , took the tools from me and unscrewed the nuts with one blow and then it dawned on me that :

"I was applying pressure in the wrong direction ...I was screwing the nuts insteads of unscrewing them"

Khair.. this direction thing is a lesson that i have learnt for ever now..I am never going to forget it again..

The whole tyre changing process took nearly more than one and a half hour...When i reached the wedding hall (PC pindi), most of the people had left..the food time was over .. all i got was some kababs and baryani.... But whatever I am happy that I was atlast able to reach that place...


Sunday 3rd Sept:

Our Organizational hiearchy has changed and the x-program manager of my x-team is leaving for Turkey..so we , the old team, gave him a farewell dinner at Cinemon... It was my 3rd or 4th trip to Cinemmon and i have now kinda started disliking the place.. First of all there is some not-very-decent thing famous about that place which might be just a rumor .. Secondly , their menu is extreme complex .. I always have to think a lot before giving an order..and what the hell.. i always forget the name of the dish that i order at the time it arrives.. lols...:) .. and then i never like the taste of the thing that i order.. and yeah!! the price is always too much.. The place is veryy expensive...

This time i had prawns or shrimps or whatever in starter... I ate one piece and then i asked..
" Do we eat the legs of this thing?"

I got two answers..

1. No.. we dont eat it..
2. Its not a leg.. Its a tail....

i had chewed the leg/tail by the time I got the answer...and just to look decent , I was not willing to throw it out ..so i gulped it.. and then , all the time during the dinner i kept feeling this irritation in my throat... :(

so this was the story of the past few days.. I will be ending bleach (cartoon anime) soon.. will start my spiritual practcies after that hopefully... am completely out of practice for soooooo long...

Oh.. Tomorrow there is a birthday of a friend , another ETL developer of my team... and he has already promised Papa Sallys Pizaa on the occassion.. Wow!! i love celeberations.. :)

Friday, September 01, 2006

Catching up with the deadlines

Finally i see some improvement in my working.. A little help from fourth dimension made me improve my concentration at work... Before that, i was doing so stupid mistakes that my project partners have come up with the name "Sameeri" for stupid mistakes...so whenever anyone makes any stupid mistake we say that he has done a Sameeri... :) ... You see i am building a good reputation for myself... :)

but now things are getting better...i am not doing much Sameeres now... Things are going smooth now..

We are having many parties at GCC these days.. The management is really trying to pump up our motivation level.. but they cant increase my motivation level...I am already so happy here.... :)..I have recently realized that all the people in my team are really lively and full of fun.. The Tech Lead of the team recently returned from USA and he brought a box full of choclates for us.. Now we start our daily 8:30 meeting with choclates.. i dont go to the bakery for the breakfast now... :)..



What else , I am watching bleach these days.. Its really a fun anime... (Anime = Japanese Cartoon).. Its a great anime.. There are spiritual beings (death Gods) who come on earth to kill Hollows (ghosts).. One death God sacrifices her powers to save a boy.. As a result the boy gets all the powers of her..and he has to complete her job of killing the ghosts...very soon his very close friends start developing their own powers because of him... Its a real fun story...with akheeer action and fun... DO watch.

Friday, August 18, 2006

Fits of laughters

Its been more than 2 weeks..I am sitting at the same place with same people..and i sit here from 8:30 in the morning till late night.. ..same faces that i see daily..I admit its fun ..more fun than seeing different faces each day..cause i happen to have very lively project partners...but every day when i wake up in the morning , i dont feel the begining of a new day..Its seems i am still passing a long day...May be i am not resting enough!!!

The project is going great...enjoying the company of my project partners is a real treat..and I am getting my usual fits of laughters like my very old days..there are some stupid funny statements which make us all very excited...we laugh whenever someone of us says that and we say it frequently.....it continues like this the whole day....and we keep laughing regularly...reminds me of my GIKI TA ship times...reminds me of one specific time when I and Kashif Bhatti had a long laughter that i guessed lasted for more than 15 miutes..may be more..I guess i never had a laughter longer than that ..and we were laughing because i gave him my reason of not playing starcraft on battlenet (multiplayer) ..basically it was a comment that my allied player gave me when i failed to protect his base..I had more than a dozen dragoons ( a strong fighting unit) but unfortunately I was not very sure of what to do with them...My ally's base was under attach and i was supposed to help him with my draggons..When the guy realized that I wont be able to reach to his base in time (cause i was having trouble in crossing a bridge..the dragoons are big units and with big units you can not cross the bridge so easily) he left the game after leaving a message for me.. . At first glance, It looked like an advice of what to do with those dozen dragoons.. unfortunately i didnt know the meaning of one of the english word in the message..so i , while playing the game , specially checked my electronic dictionary to see the meaning ...thinking it will help me win the game...and i found it it was an abusive term.. ..lol..

..and after I told this whole thing to Kashif Bhatti...we laughed like hell for so long....It was night..we had to go to sleep but we were standing in the doors (our rooms' entrances faced each other).... I had to finally sit on the floor cause i was laughing so hard that i was impossible for me to keep standing............Those were great days ....the best time of my life... I wish i could go back..I wish i could go back to Giki... back to that time.. with all those friends.... atleast for once more in my life... The time that i am having now is great too..but those memories ..that time ..it has set a benchmark for me.. a benchmark to compare happiness level...


I am happy that i got all those laughters back...but Oh God !! i am feeling so nostalgic...

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Haste makes waste

My days are still passing with LOADS of work...with me increasing my own workload by doing stupid mistakes...Thanks to my habit of getting tensed, i try to work quickly and end up doing mistakes like working on the wrong things, importing wrong tables in the database, deleting the main target tables instead of the temporary tables.... so with my normal work , i also have to spend some extra time to correct things ...... Khair i hope i will soon overcome it.

I have got 3 DVDs games with me now.. Thanks to an assignment initially given by JAhaZZ...but god knows why ....i am always so unlucky with DVD games.. whenever i buy them ,I always have to visit the shop again to get them replaced..even now , the three DVDs that i have are not functioning properly...and a poor guy like me who hardly gets enough time from office these days has to spend some hours trying to make the games work.. Yesterday , i spent two full hours trying to install the games...:( ....the games being ..my all time favourite DIABLO 2 , Black and white 2 and DREAMFALL...

ok me goes...will try to install the games again...i hope to succeed this time.. but i vow now that i will never ever ever ever buy a game DVD again...

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Free for a while

Finally i am free...We had a burst of work assignment..which made me work late along with the whole team... The past 6 days (including today's...we had to come office on saturday too) were fun...in a team of four ETL developers., i enjoyed the burden a lot. Its always fun to enjoy life in extreme conditions.. daily meetings at 8:30 am in morning ....leaving for home around some 10 pm at night.. laughing at the most stupidest things around... it was a time spent well....

What else..nothing much to tell..cause nothing new happened in my life..there were just data mappings in my mind for the past few days..

The weekend is here...the monday is off (14th august)...thanks god the assignment ended today.... two free days ahead... and i havent planned anything for such a long period of free time.. but does that matter..its the same even if i plan.. :) .. but i must party a lot...more work is on its way..

and oh God..14 August is coming..i hate listening to crackers every 5 minutes...Its so annoying...

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

My brother's engagement

This weekend my brother got engaged...finally...!!!! ............and now .. i have become the focus of many staring eyes... ..lol!! :) .. but i am confused ... cause i am really considering a few things...like...is it the right time...should i go for it now..should the girl be of my choice..or should i let it be my parents' choice... should i chose a professional or what....should i accumulate more money before getting married.......... Its such questions.....confusions...puzzling thoughts... that i am having these days.. I havent seen many of my long terms plans materializing..and i kinda dont want to waste my time in planning things..but ....well...err!!!..umm... errr....!!!! ?????...I know i will keep thinking of such things.....

The engagement was on saturday ..the program ended near 12 at night...but we reached home near 4 in morning....this was a big disturbance in my already disturbed sleep-wake cycle..and when my sleep-wake cycle gets disturbed , I become extremely cranky (Chirchira) ...(though sometimes i become quite funny..but its a different mood cycle that i am suffering these days).. so please stay polite with me for a while... :)..its for your own benefit... :)

And I have got a new addiction of a game..SIMS2..Its a beautiful game in which you control lives of different people..you make them go to school , take a bath , play games , have food , clean their home , then they grow up , they marry ..they learn things...etc..etc..etc..the game is full of many fun things...and it is very addictive...it made me stay awake till 3 for 3 consective nights last week...A few days ago It made me sad when a person in my game died..and last night a burglar stole TV and books shelf from my one of the families that i am playing with...

ok me goes now..i am not feeling well as i havent had enough sleep yet..i even took a day off from office yesterday as i was ill...please pray for my health...

oh !! about the princess ..last week its battery generator failed..had to get it replaced...but the fun thing happened last night..when i returned from home (Peshawar) last night and went to Rahat Bakery as the first thing..just to cheer up my motivation that is down because of my illness.....There i was having some snacks while sitting in the princess and i thought to put the keys in the ignition plug..i did that...and after a while i thought i should better get some juice too...so I got out of the car..locked it...and OHHHHHH!!!! I left the keys inside...:(...Now the two front doors of my car have different locks ..one has Suzuki locks other has Toyota Locks....so at that time of night (it was 11:30 pm) i was seen asking people (having Toyotas and Suzukis) to let me try their keys on my car...but no success....after some 6-7 attempts of opening the locks with different keys..i finally had to came home on a TAXI to get a spare key that i have placed at home for such occasions (i have locked the keys inside two times before:) ) ....

Thats all for today...Very soon i will write about a friend who is leaving..(leaving what??) ....Details later...

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

Me in July 2006

My O my..This is a big gap between the posts....but its not my fault..my desire to stay on the edge of technology made me download FireFox 2.o beta the day it was released..(it was not even on mozilla's main webpage..I had to search for the installation file on tech forums)...then i wrote a long long post and just when i was about to publish it. . ..firefox crashed.... @:..i was so angry..now i have switched back to 1.5.. i dont know why people call firefox stable..

My project is going at snail speed now...with bursts of late office sittings once in a while..I am kinda getting tired of late sittings..so now i usually try to leave office early..thats why no blogging for some time...Today i sat late as i had to call Ireland to talk with my sister... enjoyed some shopping time along with her in ireland markets....

Oh... N E W S .. My brother is getting engaged..this weekend...so I will have to go home.. I might even take a day off from office..

What else..i cleaned my room ..and now it looks better..(cleaner)..i have also bought an ironing table and now my room is more filled with ever with me occusionally hitting one thing or the other on my way ..The following events frustrate me at times..

  • While ironing my clothes , the long sleeve of the shirt hits the power cable .. that makes the cable fall out of the socket ..that turns off the TV..now ...It is important to plug the cable carefully so that the hot iron may not fall down on my head while i am bent below the iron table reaching the wall socket.
  • Before using my PC i have to drag my chair near the computer table...then while ironing i have to drag it a bit far away (usually to the center of the room ) so that i may get full freedom in moving my arm...then while going out of the room..i have to move the chair from the center to area behind the door so it may not come in the way...but ..then to use my PC againI have to drag the chair again causing it to come in the vicinity of the ironing table again..!!!!!!!.... .The cycle continues........argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ...........But wait..............thats not all............ this continuos dragging of the chair effects the floor mat so that ripples are formed on it and then i cant open the room door without first clearing the mat ripples.. argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!....
  • And now that i have an AC in room ..I have got one more remote control to search for (first it was only the TV's remote) ...so yeah!!..still ..most of the time in my room is spent searching for the remote controls.

FOOD:

I recently added Jalapinos peppers to my collection of sauces and pickles at home..for some time, i am enjoying sandwiches made from frozen food and some good sauces ....and wow!! they taste greaaaaaaaat............ I love eating all the dishes made by the genius cook within me....


Princess:

Princess is ok...I finally shifted it on Gas......It was indeed a rarely sighted scene when i was watching Naruto on my laptop at the mechanic's place in Pindi.....:) ... then a few days ago , i had some trouble with gas again....but when i got gas filled from an other gas station..the car started working fine..i dont know wether its true or not but it seems that different gas stations have different kind of gases... huh!!!.. o-:


Spiritually...

I am kinda lazy on the Spiritual front ..am not regular now..i keep feeling relaxed all the time and thus i fell that i dont need to do any meditation..... This weekend i listened to the Silva CDs that i once got free and found that they are too great for me if i use them... I have too much good spiritual knowledge stuff piled with me now but i dont have enough time to read /hear /view it..


About Friends:
  • Noman Yasir Jelani aka NYJ is going to Canada..for a training on Wi-Max.. something great happening to a great guy like him..
  • Timmy aka Taimoor had a new haircut on my constant insisting...It was a Razor Cut i.e The hairdresser used a razor instead of scissor to cut his hairs.. Its the newest fashion in the town dattey boyou.. [dattey boyou is japanese of 'you know']..so please get impressed from me for having a friends who has Razor cuts ..
  • Saleem Gul wrote an article on Net beans..[link].I dont get it what net beans is..even though he explained it to me..(hey!! i am EE guy) ...:).. so please get impressed from me for having friends whose articles appear on big sites...
  • Jazz has requested me to be courteous enough to go to Jinnah Super , buy some computer games for him (there were some 40 games in the list he sent to me with nearly 30 marked as MUST HAVE) and then be more courteous by sending it to him through TCS..oh! thats not all...he has also asked for some choclates with it...
  • Bodz asked me not to do anything for any one ever...This is the corollary of one of the laws of successful life.... "I am happy and I must remain happy" ....This was said a long time ago but i recall it now as i seek guidance in order to analyze JAZZ's highly demanding request ..so i guess...i should not send any DVDs to JAZZ..(even though now i have bought 3) .. I must conform to Bodi 's saying as thats the only commandment that he left for me before leaving for Finland..I cant betray one friend for the other...

Naruto

Have seen some 177 episode of Naruto and have started with reading its manga (the comic book ) ..It is as addivtive as the anime (animation)....Uff!!!....Naruto is too kool...oh an btw! Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle is coming back too .. the movie will be released in 2007... [link]

What else...hey!! i am keeping a frenchie beard these days... :)

Friday, July 07, 2006

TRIM

Today was a busy day..My new project's work assignments have started to arrive and they do suck a lot of time..

The whole day i kept making foolish mistakes..where the most common one was : not trimming the values to compare.[for non CS people: i was not converting the values to same format before comparing] ..I even wrote it big on a paper "ALWAYS TRIM" and kept it in front of me..even then i kept doing this same mistake again and again..

My previous project was DHL Czech Republic...and i was not happy with my performace in that ..I had vowed to be extra efficient in my new project but...what the hell.. i keep getting stucked in very basic things...kept working till 9:00 pm where as all the other team mates were free by 5 pm.. :(.... I kept cursing my self the whole day for not being able to catch up ...but khair..thats life.. after all i have changed my whole field...so whatever is happening should be an expectation.. I am not a very genius guy and i will have to live with my speed of grasping new ideas.

Oh.. I had a lunch at Marriot today..It was a treat from the project manager of my previous project for our good work on the project. The guy was so happy that he sent money from Czech to sponsor our lunch...Earlier the plan was to go for a dinner but we couldnt get a common free dinner time so it was decided to go for it on Friday's lengthy lunch time.. We had Thai food..I have never had thai food before..but.. i didnt eat anything new in the food.. the only new thing that i noticed was the strange combination of Kahwa (green tea) and choclate that was served after the food...instead of the dessert..

What else..I am blank...completely blank..made a telephone call to my sister a while ago... felt sleepy during the conversation even though she was talking about something that can effect my future...

Kashif Bhatii aka KB is in Nathia Gali right now.. I kept trying calling him the whole day..His number was not reachable.. :(.. will probably meet him on sunday..

Am feeling sleepy... will go home now...am waiting to see how the Sand Ninjas will save the leaf ninjas from the sound ninjas... :) ..Today i got new episodes of Naruto you know... :)

Monday, July 03, 2006

GCC birthday

GCC Birthday

We had GCC birthday on 29th June.. GCC , my office , is short for Global Consulting Center.. Its sort of a branch of NCR which turned one year old on 29th. We went to Hotshots F-9 park to celeberate the birthday where we started with bowling. I have never played bowling before.In the start the game looked weird..and i was really wondering who invented this game and how..?? but later i started enjoying it..My score was the lowest in my team. :(

Then we had Laser Tag. I had been trying to play this game for so long. It was a nice game of 15 minutes in which we , 5 boys , played against our enemies , 8 girls , and lost.. :(... In the game , we hit each other's infra-red-sensor-jackets with laser guns ..it is a great game , i will surely be playing it more...was fun..Seems a sure way of losing weight as one keeps running around in total excitement for 15 minutes..

Then we had food and i ate chicken wings till the vomit limit.. lol. :)

At night i was very happy(hyper) and when i met Noman he commented on my behaviour as "You are acting like little kids who become very hyper after having jhola at a park" :)

About Naruto:

I have watched 99 episodes.. an episode is 20+ minutes ..and many times i re-watch a scene repeatedly...so it means that i have spent 33+ hours on it.. I am still enjoying the story line.. its great ...

About My Spiritual Journey:

On this weekend Timmy aka Taimoor gifted me a book ..Its Zawiya 2 by Ishfaq Ahmed..(oh.i am getting too many book gifts these days) .I also bought a book on telepathy by Khwaja Shams-ud-Din Azeemi. I am now feeling that spiritual development doesnt depend only on learning psychic abilities..It also requires learning of life concepts . I recently understood the importance of Forgiveness..A term very heavily used but rarely understood in its proper meanings..I plan to write a post on the power and meanings of Forgivenessthe way i understand it..The book Zawiya gives a good insight into life..I feel the words of the author going deep down ....deep inside me...It sort of cleanses the soul and empowers it to grow.. A PTA friend , Shehryar, used to say that its not important to learn psychic abilities as they are not the ultimate goal...He is quite right when i think about the ultimate goal.. but i am continuing just because i want to see the world with a different angle..atleast for a while..

I have a lot of books piled up now that i have to read.. I have a lot of audio/video lectures to listen....and there a few softwares that i have to try..and then there is this one software that i want to crack ..i have been looking for its crack since Oct 2005... :(.. i am too desperate that i am even willing to reinstall my windows after every 15 days.(the trial limit is 15 days) .but i hope i will soon find easier ways to make the trial run longer. May i succeed in my (un)holy plans..

Thursday, June 29, 2006

Sandwich and Salad

Life is a bit changed these day... thinking of Naruto all day... and then trying to watch its clips every now and then..have watched 75 episodes...(there are nearly 300 in total)..

yesterday , i had a strange cooking experience.. I was trying to make a sandwich ..ended up making a Salad..:) ..I have too many sauces at my places..Tomato ketchup , Mianoese , Chicken Spread , Olives in Vinegar, Mustard Sauce.. so i usually bring some frozen food from market and enjoy a tasty sandwich . Sometime i bring that to office. Last night the tomato slices, cucumber slices, onion pieces ,capsicum pieces and the cutlas pieces made the sandwich bigger than the capacity of the sandwich maker. so i finally made a Salad out of the ingredients and stored that in the fridge so that i may take it to office....Oops!! i forgot to bring it in morning..

My sleep cycle is very disturbed these days.. i do go to bed early but once there, i start watching Naruto. strangely i am not having the effects that i usually have with lack of sleep..It might seem stupid if i say so , but i do feel it that watching Naruto fills me with some kind of energy..I dont know what it is...Probably its happiness... or satisfaction.. I dont know what..but it is there....

Ok!!...Me goes to enjoy the birthday of NCR GCC (my office) .. too many celeberations around these days..

Monday, June 26, 2006

Quick Refresh

I have fallen in love with NARUTO.. A japanese anime..about Ninja kids who use their Ninja Arts, different illusionary techniques and Chakras for fighting with each other. Its a great anime.. i have watched 50 episodes uptill now...I started watching it because i heard they use Chakras. Now , most of the times i keep thinking about the characters of the anime.. I am really impressed by the great art , the story line , the characters, the music , sound track , the everything.. I wish i could learn Japanese..


I went to Ceroze Cinema last week with PTA friends.. Noman Jelani ,Taimoor aka Timmy, Kashif.. We watched MI:3 ... ( a pathetic movie!!).. All of a sudden i feel my connections with PTA friends getting stronger.. Later in the week I enjoyed Noman's Bday party at Italian Oven with a few more PTA friends.. Noman was my best buddy in PTA... He is not a very sensitive person and is usually very hyper ..thats what i like about him.

I had a 4D workshop last weekend. Three NCRians , other than me , attended the workshop.. Taimoor aka Timmy also attended it.. The workshop was not great.. It was poor in contents and was very mismanaged in the start..I have been attending the workshops for a long time and i feel that its quality is dropping continuosly.. Oh! i did it for free.. :)..

Our office is now strictly monitoring our internet usage.... i had a download of 330 MB (for a month) where the average usage was 55 MB..later i found a person who had a download of 7 GB of data.. :) ...Access to Google video was blocked last week..This morning i found that MSN spaces has been blocked too. :( ...I hope i will be getting Bodi's posts through google reader (i dont know wether RSS feeds get blocked or not)..... Soon blogger will be blocked too... :( .. I surely need to get an internet connection at home..

What else:
  • Raza left Pindi..He is back in Karachi now..He will soon join Imperial University London for his PHD on Dr. Emoto's Crystal. :).. ..Raza is a great person..(i must say so afterall he has gifted me two books on my MOST favourite topics).
  • My brother returned from Sweden.. His "haan" has been done and now his mangney will be celeberated soon.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Adush



Though they have deleted my wiki , they can't delete my intellectual work.. I hope the image above will be readable....and please express it when you get impressed by my laptop's 1400 x 1050 resolution.

(For best results , please open the image in a new window and then save this full image on your harddisk and view through a image viewer)

What makes me happy today:
  • I finally got a song that i was looking for so long. Its "Release - Afro Celt Sound System"..
  • I am also happy because i got Earth 2 whole season from a guy in NCR. Earth 2 was my favourite series when i was a kiddo.
  • I am also happy because the "Dungar"(read:Dung-gar) Pointer gave me a nice and expensive treat today at "Table Talk" restaurant in Kohsar Market along with a few other NCRians. I was thinking i will have to pay , but the news came later that its a free treat by him. Thanks man!!!!
  • And i have finally formated my system..though i had to go through a big process for that and there is still a lot of installation to do tomorrow.

Monday, June 12, 2006

NLP success and Dianetics

NLP Success

I met an old friend who was extremely worried as it turned out that the girl of his dreams was not exactly the girl of his dreams. He met me right after having a very traumatic incident with that girl.He was sad , disappointed and was thinking of himself a real loser.. Thats when i thought of applying an old forgotten NLP trick on him..

I asked him of to think of all the worst things that can happen to him .. he did so..then i asked him to tell me about the best things that can happen to him..he did that too.. I asked him the first question again... and then the second question again.. I kept repeating it..making him answers to me louder everytime... This is known as pattern breaking... I dont want to go into much detail basically because i do not remember the precise science behind it..but whatever ..the thing worked and the guy was all ok and fine...He left feeling great and confident..

There was another trick that i applied on him..I dont know the name of it but i have applied it so many time during my academic life ..it a special breathing mechanism through which you can get rid of all the negative thoughts in mind.. I dont remember how i learnt it.. but i recently read that this is a very good technique to awake the kundalini...

I now feel very satisfied when the guy tells that both the tricks helped him a lot...I regret now for not practicing these things earliers.. This was my first attempt..though i learnt the course an year ago..

DIANETICS / SCIENTOLOGY

Dianetics has started managing its office in Islamabad..They offered a Seminar on Communication Skills this sunday..

A few concepts that i learnt follow:

A man is composed of a body , a mind and a soul ...
Body: it is the physical thing that we can see.. i.e our organs..
Mind: it is the collection of mental images that we have...i.e it is the collection of all our memories..this is not only limited to visual pictures but also the memory of other senses.
Soul(Thetan): it is us...we ... the spirit..the thing in us that thinks...

Reactive Mind: According to the concepts of dianetics , all of us have a reactive mind that stores traumatic memories and these traumatic memories keep haunting us all our life.. these disturbing memories are called engrams.

Auditing: Auditing is a procedure in which a guy who wants to get rid of the thoughts in the reactive mind sits with a councilor (called orator) and talks about various incidents of his life.. the orator takes once incident at a time and asks the guy to reapeat telling about the incident again and again each time giving more information about the incident.. Finally the guy starts feeling fine about his traumatic experience and gets rid of the engram cause by that experience.. The auditing session continues as long as a person is completely clear of all the engrams.. Such a person is then termed as a CLEAR in terms of dianetics.

About Aliens:
I read somewhere that dianetics is related to an idea that long ago aliens invaded Earth and brainwashed the people. but in the seminar , they didnt tell us any such story..besides even the main stream article on wiki doesnt say so..so i guess that was just a rumour.. I spoke to the manger of the dianetics office here and he didnt know about any such thing..

About the Communication Seminar
It was a nice seminar.. cant write much as i have already spent too much time writing about Dianetics.. There were some communication exercises in the seminar which seemed good to me.. At the end of the seminar they showed us a video of Tom Cruise saying good words about the Dianetics .. He is famous for actively supporting Dianetics.. Celebrities like him make marketing quite easier.. :)

Dianetics offers variey of courses like the Basic moral values , career growth, learning the methods to study, etc.. Basically these are all self development courses...I may or may not take some course...All depends on what if feel about it in future...My first experience was fine..and i may go for another one, though i am more interested in knowing the Aliens stuff... :( . Self improvement is good but the alien thing is really kool... :)

Thursday, June 08, 2006

CAR conversations

with a general person:
speak:my car is with the mechanic
hear:again.
speak:yeah
hear: oh..why dont you leave this car..why dont you buy a new one..i tell you what ..there is this option that you can get the car leased from a bank...the way to do it is .....[i wait till the end]

with mom..
speak: hi...
hear: hi..how are you? have you started searching for a girl yet or not.
speak: no..mom.not yet..
hear: start looking then...i want you to get married soon..
speak: all right..i will do it..right now i am very bored ..Its the car..its still with the mechanic..
hear: what?? why dont you just get rid of this car..throw it away..whats the use of it if it is disturbing you daily..sell it and buy a new one...dont take this tension any more...get rid of the junk...
speak: i dont have enough moeny to buy a new one..
hear: Why dont you get it leased form the bank..its very easy..pappa was saying that Sameer can get a car leased from the bank..all he will have to do is........[i wait]


with a friend who visits Islmabad after a long time

hear: What is this..
speak: what?
hear: what kind of car is this?
speak: yar..kiya kharabi hay is main..it is doing all the work for me..
hear: but you are earning good you can get a better car..
speak..yar..i am fine with this...whats wrong with this..
hear: whats fine with this car...its doesnt even look good. why dont you buy a new car..
speak..cause i dont have enough money.
hear: thats not a problem you can simply get a car on lease...you can buy whatever car you want ..all you have to do is... [i wait till end]
speak..ok.should we go now..
hear..yeah..but it will be better if we leave your car here and go on my car..

with Bodi
type: ok yar...me goes now have to get my car...
read: from where?
type: from the mechanic..its **** was causing problem ...
read: whats the use of such a car ..you have spent so much on this stupid thing..An old car is always an old car...
type: yeah! i realize it now..
read: you always realize things late and you dont ever listen to the people around you..had you listened to me earlier and had you abstained from spending so much on the old car and your stupid silva workshops, you would have earned enough money to leave Pakistan..
type: yeah..right!!
read: your life is so full of waste..start doing something about it...you have no plans for your future ..you want to do whatever comes in your mind.. didnt you learn anything from your tableeghi time... why dont you just listen to me.. Now start saving your money and make up your future..

[err..should i tell him about the lease thing]

with Raza
speak: yar..what the hell ..the car is troubling again..
hear: uff!! kia mosiabt hay..why did you buy it..
speak: yar..a friend of mine in PTA sold it on me beacuse he wanted to make his boss happy..i was fooled by him...
hear: this is certainly quite interesting...why do you trust in people so easily..why are you so blind a follower..this is why i always ask you to go for a peer review whenever you have to spend money on something...Peer review is a proper scientific process in which recognized and affiliated scientists review something genuinely and publish their scientific research results in international scientific journals that are read world wide in the scientific communities and then there are seminars and discussions on the findings and the results of the research are then made public..
speak..err..Raza..who is that guy in green shirt...
hear...where ..where...which way..
speak..Adussssh....
hear. oho...had darjay bad tameez admi ho..how do you always remember this..



With NCR pepole-lasania cafeteria

Speak:yar meri gari aaj phir khar gharab ho gayee hay..
hear: oho..ab kiya ho gaya aap ki gari ko..perhaps now the engine is not working..but i guess it was working fine..kiyon keh woh app nay abhi abhi theek karaya tha....perhaps its some problem with the clutch pad.
hear...app [pause] aisa [pause] kiyon [pause] nahee [pause] kartey [pause] kah [pause] aik [pause] hi [pause] bar..
hear: yar..aik to yeah bolney main itna time lagata hay..sham ho jati hay suntey suntey...
hear: to to chup kar na..suney day..or yeah dhuwaan zara side per phank...
hear: acha..yar main door bhait jaataa hoon..
hear: to door bhi bhetay ga to dhuwaan phir bhe hamari taraf hi aye ga...yeah to bata aaj hum cigarette kon sa pee rahain hay..
hear:pata naheen yar.yeah ***** kaheen say lay ker aiyee hain..
hear:kiya..****!! aap yeah cigarette is kiy liye lay ker aaeen hay..app is masoom ko kharab kar raheen hain..
hear:naheen naheen..main is ko kharab naheen kar raha..infact ..rather...yeah or sameer mujhay kharab kar rahain hain..
hear...acha..to main ap ko kharab kar raha hoon..
hear: naheen naheen..haan haan.. mera matlab yeah naheen that..mera matlab tha keh mujhay Sameer kharab kar raha hay.. Seemingly , appearantly !! usi ki company say main aisa ho gaya hoon..
hear: acha chal main pepsi le kay aata hoon..
hear: pepsi...oh yar meray liye woh bhi lay aana.. [a hand gesture is used]
hear:raita!!?? koon sa?? ...
hear:koon say wala...yar ap batain kain main kon sa wala raita khaoon...
hear:yar ab app nay khana hay to main kaisay bataoon kay kon sa raita khana hay..
hear:yar bus to lay aa na...kuch bhee lay aa na .. Roman Catholics main aisa hi hota hoga..acha.ja
hear:Roman Catholic ...perhaps woh itna dahee naheen khatey they..Romans main cheese zaada use hota tha..haan...laiken Rome ki aik city thi jis main , i guess, dahee bhi bohot istimaal hota tha..rahter there were two such cities...perhaps there was only one..perhaps other cities got this tradition from that city .....rather..perhaps..rather...
[a laughter]
[a laughter mocking the first laughter]
[a laughter again because of the 2nd laughter]
hear:Oho..Chal to suna to kiya keh raha tha..yeah..roman catholics to hamara damagh khatey raheen gay.. bulkay damagh ki dahi banatey raheen gay...
hear:main [pause] keh [pause] raha [pause] tha [pause] keh [pause] app [pause] naiee [pause] gaari [pause] lease [pause] per [pause] kiyon [pause] naheen [pause] lay [pause] leetay . . . . . . . . . . . ..



NCR- THE secret P3 corp meeting

[since its a secret meeting]

what others hear: [some muffled sounds ]..'my car'...[some muffled sounds ]..'princess is naraz'...[some muffled sounds ]..'in 4D'..[some muffled sounds ]..'fix its engine in the healing room'..[some muffled sounds ]..'power symbol on the seat'...[some muffled sounds ]...[a strange sound as if some hindu is chanting some praying words]....[some muffled sounds ]..[a laughter]...'Kundalini was awakened'....[some muffled sounds ]....'then the three wise men looked at me and said'...[some muffled sounds ]... 'the aunt who died with madness'...[some muffled sounds ]..[a laugter]....'meray say kuch kiyon naheen hota'...[some muffled sounds]...'Out of Body experience is so'...[some muffled sounds ]..'program managers'....[some muffled sounds ]....'i have shared this new software'...[some muffled sounds ]...'itna fit hay.itna zaada fit hay'...[some muffled sounds ]..'koi naheen ji..yeah kiya baat hoi'...[some muffled sounds ]........

Friday, June 02, 2006

War of the words

Below is a reply to the comments on my last post..I did not have enough motivation to waste time on that stupid comment box that requires html scripting for formatting...and you can not even put pure html there...

I am continuing this word war because i am somewhat tired of me shutting up after just one or two sentences from people who dont beleive me and start arguing ...so this one time i have decided to continue it..Much of the text that follows might not be interest of you..You can simply read the last four paras..as before that ..its a conversation that goes on between me and Raza ....and i guess only he will be able to have the motivation to understand and read all the thing... To get his comments on what i say, do check the comments section later..

Legend:
Blue text is my earlier writing..that i wrote in a comment as response to a comment .
Green text is Raza's reply to that blue writing..
Normal is my present writing which is a response to Raza's green text..

CONVERSTAION WITH RAZA

Ok..lets go through it again:

First off, there is a distinction between research and scientific method. Research is a part of science, and thereby you cannot do research applicable to science unless you meet other criteria of scientific method. That research is associated with scientific method is in the definition of Research from the wiki link you cite.


I still have no interest in the scientific method..why because it is NOT something that you talked about earlier.. you used the word research ..but then you looked on the definition on it and didn’t find any thing objecting Emoto.. then you looked at this link of scientific method (given on the wiki of ‘Research’ ) and then you are using the word ‘scientific method’ to help you to the rescue.. I am sure that you know it more than I do that staying on one word is important in a discussion cause going into the meaning of each and every word makes things out of focus…that why I am still hooking to the word research.. so in the next reply which you will definitely provide. .i don’t want to talk about scientific method cause I don’t think that its helping me.. but if you really think it IS that important ..i am talking about it in the para below when you yourself provided a copy paste from it..


I gave you the criteria for scientific method, which includes peer review. It was paraphrased, here it is again in case you missed it:


Another basic expectation is that of making complete documentation of data and methodology available for careful scrutiny by other scientists and researchers, thereby allowing other researchers opportunity to verify results as well as to establish statistical measures of reliability.

The writing itself says that this requirement is mainly an expectation..and not a requirement.. Btw do you know that there is criticism on the "peer review thing'.. mainly because it is slow (taking many years sometimes) and because it makes the ability to publish susceptible to control by elites and to personal jealousy.

And IN YOUR FACE ...let me tell you that there have been many papers that appeared in scientific journals without any peer review...FAMOUS EXAMPLES:

1. Publication of Watson and Crick's 1951 paper on the structure of DNA in Nature.

2. Abdus Salam's paper "Weak and electromagnetic interactions". Salam even got the Nobel prize for it in 1979. and ou

You ask me why I give such importance to Wiki, for one you quoted it when you posted on Silva so I assumed its a resource you trust, for another although everyone can edit Wikis, Wiki is "open source". Anyone can raise objections and contest material, thereby if there are differing opinions on a matter they are often contested. If you find anything misleading here, you can do the same.


Raza!! We were not talking about MY CRITERIA to understand thing…It should be YOUR CRITERIA all the time… You already have so many objections on my sources and the things that I think are trustworthy….. and btw MOST of the spiritual stuff that I have learnt is from wikipedia.. does it mean that you believe in that all too?? Aint this strange that I guy who believes in research still follows a site which can be objected by anyone and which can be edited by anyone who may or may not be applying the so called scientific methods in editing the wiki. It is even objected by the wiki writers... read...

So how many people do you know who edit wikis using ‘Scientific method’ and how many people in the world are all dedicated to the holy cause of keeping wikipedia correct . You have assumed that all the people in the world have an all time internet connection along with ample of time & motivation to check the wikis of their interest. On the Internet, it's impossible to actually confirm people's identity in the first place, short of getting credit-card information. On any site it's very easy to come up with a fake identity..


WRONG!! Lets see how..there are two objections
not repeatable
double blind

REPEATABLE:
Emoto's experiements are repeateable...Not only that the whole process has been described on the same wiki from where you learnt all the things against him (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Masaru_Emoto) but also on NBC's website where they even tell you to experiment it yourself.. They the NBC guys call him a researcher btw...
(http://www.nbc10.com/news/5455548/detail.html)
http://www.nbc10.com/news/5476558/detail.html)


When I say repeatable it is in context of technically complete specifications, which is not the case.

A group of students in colorado (i think) tried to repeat his experiements (the very last link on the wikipedia site on Emoto) and they came up with the conclusion that it was impossible to do it, because the specification is just too vague. (They also found that virtually all of the crystals across different emotions looked the same in general)

NO RAZA.. you are wrong again…. they were able to do it … READ IT AGAIN..its here…It was done by Advanced Placement Psychology class at Durango High School in Durango, Colorado ..They did the whole experiment using ALL the technical parameters defined by Emoto .These technical specifications are written on the Emoto’s wiki and the class itself has defined it in their procedures as well.. … The students were ABLE to do the experiment .. and there results were in conformance .. Read below as I answer


Emoto approaches the issue of objectivity from a radically different perspective: Since each person's state of mind will affect the water, and since much of the experiment is based on the "consciousness of wanting to find that beauty," then a person with a neutral or disinterested perspective might not find the crystals at all, he said.

so are you getting it..the water gets effected differently by the thoughts of different people..so you can not go for the blind test.. Blind test can be used only at the places where the state of changing a person mind wont effect the result..Here , the results WILL be effected..and thats the basic essence of the whole research...the way you presented this thing was as if Emoto was denying any offer of the peer review and was hiding his findings...he, instead, has described his method so clearly that even you yourself can do them to check their authenticity..What else do you want..


First off he hasnt presented his methods in a way that I can do it, or even you can. I've cited you a link where a group of students tried to replicate his results and couldnt simply because there wasnt enough information, and what he did give did NOT give any fancy results.

AGAIN.. YOU ARE WRONG .. The students were able to do it.. citing something and presenting it in a wrong manner wont make your argument true…READ THE WHOLE THING AGAIN.. READ IT here..…Since you have WRONGLY repeated the thing so many time..now I will give the true picture by writing the conculsion that they (the colarado people) had ..It follows


Conclusion: We did not find sufficient evidence to refute or accept Emoto’s hypothesis that thought influences water crystal formation. We noticed one interesting similarity between two separate groups of water samples: Similar crystals formed on the same message, “I despise you,” in two types of water. But, for the most part, the crystal formations in each water sample resembled each other, regardless of the messages attached to them. We concluded that in order to make a significant finding, further research would have to be done. So, for now, we will have to live with our curiosity and continue to wonder if our thoughts have the power to influence water and ultimately ourselves.

So you see it.. They were able to find the same type of crystals on the same type of message “I despise you”….and although they did not have very very supportive result..they still accept that they do NOT have sufficient evidence to refute or accept the guy…They have concluded that FURTHER RESEARCH should be done.. FURTHER RESEARCH right??? So the experiment did provide them enough curiosity cause they did find something there..


AND RAZA…here I wonder again.. A researcher who proves his point by giving theories from wikipeida and examples from some Psychology class at a High School . Are they really so credible for you.. Is that YOUR criteria ??? this clearly means that YOU CAN NOT target my criterias when your own criterias are not worth trusting.. Wikipedia and other internet search results should not be a criteria for a proper researcher at least.. and if it so then whats the difference between a normal person and a researcher..

His saying that you only find the crystals when you WANT to consciously find them, doesnt that send off warning signals? The blind tests do NOT impact the conditioning of the water (that would cause the crystals to form). They are there to discourage people from finding the crystals they'd like to find.

HE never says that you only find the crystals when you want to find them. He says that he hired photographers based on their…..(cited by wiki)

aesthetic sense and character is the important aspect when taking crystal photographs. Therefore, I try to make sure that they can take photographs in a relaxed and positive atmosphere.

…. (citation ends)

SO this is how and why he selects people.. and off course that’s what he should do…why? Because not every person has a properly developed aesthetic sense. Not every person is able to find beauty. You can go on and read this thing in Psychology if you don’t trust me.. and secondly he wants to provide a proper environment in which people wont be fighting on the definition of beauty…


What Emoto is essentially saying is that you consciously look for crystals that support your hypothesis. Either that, or I misunderstand you.


Well..from the thing that I read I don’t think that’s what he is saying..Try to read it with an unbiased mind…


At any rate, theres nothing stopping people from using all their mind power when they're creating the crystals. However if they start using their mind power when photographing the crystals, then you basically are never going to be wrong :).

Well.. the way I understand it…is that the thought projection thing (that you have named mind power above) is done before taking the photograph… i.e the step 2 on the wikipedia …photography is the step 6 in the procedure defined on wikipedia..

Since he says its language independent, he could follow blinding by cursing in one language and hiring the photographer of a different origin who is unaware of what to look for.

Yes ..He has exposed water to different languages and has come up with the same results… Hiring a photographer of a different origin is not important at all…cause that is the step 6… but offcourse this is yet again a very trivial thing which you can use to build another argument only because there is no information on whether he actually tried hiring a photographer or not.. though you yourself know that people on other places (colarado) have done these things… yet again you will come up with something about which there is no information wether it was done or not..just to create confusion…

But then no...you have to consciously look to find structure right.. So you have license to fabricate any relationship you want.

I didn’t get this sentence.. Paraphrasing may help… The thing that I understand is that your probably mean that you can get what you want from it..the same way ..you and I google on the net and always find opposite point of views on the same things…some time from the same source…some time from same experiment results…especially the Colorado one…which you yourself asked me to READ AGAIN…thinking that I had not read it..and then I have given the whole conclusion here telling that the experiment was infact concluding in the favour of more research.. Citing it went against your points..

And it is true that Emoto has not published in peer review, nor are his methods repeatable (I once again urge you to read the report of the psychology class that tried to redo his experiments).

YES RAZA.. I have read the report of the psychology class..and I don’t urge you to read that..i simply ask you to scroll up and see their conclusion from up there..that I have simply copied and pasted from their website… I am really amazed a psychology class in colarado is all that you are referring again and again.. Hmmm.. a very nice example by a person who claims to look into SCIENTIFIC Methods when proving something…It shows your level.. and you blame that I am the one who believes in things quickly.

By the way, the *Photo Essay* he has out is in the American Journal of Alternative Medicine. So it is clearly not a case of him not having access to scientific journals or anything like that. He merely, for some reason, does not put his research out in a scientific way.

I don’t know wether its him or not…I have never read an article or anything from him explicitly saying that he is not deliberately writing things to scientific journal..May be he tried and was turned down by the political bodies in the scientific community …may be no body ever approached him…(like that 1 million dollar challenge ,in which the foundation never actually directly asked him).. there can be many things..…However, what you should come up with must be an article in scientific journals completely against Emoto…Can you find that..oh you can always use Google and Wikipedia..

What else?? Oh!! read comments on him at http://66.201.42.16/viewitem.php3?id=511&catid=510&kbid=ionsikc where a woman who is M.D., Ph.D. , Founding President, of American Holistic Medical Association talks about Emoto..


I didnt give my links any credibility just because they were written by Phds. Nor because any TV station called someone a researcher, because I am a "researcher" and that doesnt really mean anything.

Oh..you never gave any credibility at all..though you should have if you are a researcher.It was only me attempting to give some credibility by citing a PHD…all that you ever cited was the wiki searc results…oh how very credible…All wikis are written by PHDs right (sarcastic…cause they are not written by PHDs..They are written by people whose identities can not be verified..)


Masuro emoto ofcourse could be called a researcher. He is after all a Phd, even if thats from the Open University of Alternative Medicine in India or whatever.

Earlier you said in an earlier comment ..the 2nd one in the comments on the post…that he has not done any research.. Read the last line of your comment ..….Now you are saying that he can be called a researcher….Does it prove something..?? You yourself are saying conflicting things…

So Dear Raza ..now i have used your own criteria to prove the guy true

You havent *proven* anything. Nor have I *proven* anything. Lets not claim results we havent got. Neither of us is Masuru Emoto :D

Oh yeah…and I didn’t prove that you said conflicting things up there....and here again you are blaming Emoto of saying things without a research.. False claims Raza!!.. you are not coming up with anthing solid ..you are just repeating the sentence to make the false look true..

Talking about existance of no research...and then denying an example ...and then keep reading it about from other websites to prove it wrong....when the problem is not the research ...but in my ability to believe those things quickly which you do not...you have been targeting the wrong thing Raza from the very start.


Well this has been an encouraging exercise for me because I've gotten you to read about him, even if that has been from the section of Wikipedia that was sympathetic to him :D.

Wikipedia was sympathetic to him.. really??…Oh you can always raise objections on this article then as wikis are supposed to be neutral…and you claimed earlier in your comments that anybody can do that…Lets see who has too much spare time to go and correct all the wrong things on the wikipedia…Lets see who edits Dr. Emotos wiki now to make it appear neutral..After all , as you claim ,its an open source thing which according to your logic makes it credible and true.


The last time we talked, you gave me an example of the "science" of your stuff, do you remember? That they have captured the katra or whatever with some magnetic resonance stuff. And I dismissed that and said tahts not science. And we had a whole discussion on what science is then, and I told you that the body of knowledge that is accepted in universities and scientists is science (becuase science is a function of what we know).

Do you remember that debate? We ended on whether science is the same as knowledge.

Yeah…I remember..we were standing beside my princess. I was of the view that knowledge is science..and you were confused wether it is not..and that’s where we ended when I got bored by your confused answers of wether knowledge is science or not. At that time you claimed that there is NO RESEARCH anywhere in the world on the paranormal stuff..

So clearly, my saying that there is no research on this was in context of scientific research. I have shown you how this isnt research, the guy hasnt put out a scientific publication and that he doesnt shield his results from bias (the requirement again is that you dont need to be unbiased when cursing/being nice to the water crystals, but be unbiased when filming it).

WRONG…you have to be biased before taking the picture…REPEATING again…just because you want it to appear it true.. oh..you say (you repeat) that it is not a research as the guy has not come up with any scientific publication…but how is it that you call yourself a researcher when you too have not got any scientific publication against the Water crystals… Let me repeat to make the true thing appear true…that Emoto doesn’t say that you need to be biased when filming the crystal.. you do it before that….


If you think the Randi stuff is non-credible then I'll drop that argument. Anything that either one of us doesnt trust becomes a red herring.

Oh.. Wow…you are trying to show that all the other things that you cited were extremely credible….

so let me be clear..i have been into paranormal stuff and though i have not been able to come up with earthshaking results , i have had enough experinces/reading that make me understand a few phenomenons... uff!!


The way it will work out Sameer (and you can put this upto my being in tune with the cosmic energy of your future) is that you will realise that these things do not bring any appreciable value to your life, eventually, and will discover how people can take advantage of your genuine longing for spirituality in order to fulfill their own very material need for money. However, you will do that only when you've paid a very hefty physical and career price for it.

thanks for PREDICTING the future…All knowledge comes on a price…It may be money…it may be long hours of reading things on internet… People do waste their money and time on things they wanna know and learn.. I spent a lot more (money +time) in GIKI on my electronic engineering studies…Do you have objection on that…cause I am in an IT firm now.. I never found the line of people dying to hire me in their company at the time of my graduation…neither I ever found a good electronics related company …but still I believe that the education I got there was important for me… I still keep on going on Electronic/Telecom related seminars cause i know that eductation never goes wasted.. Btw ..in this para..don’t you think you sound like the molvees in the mosques who tell people that they will be burnt in hell flames if they wont listen to what they say.. and just to clarify: i have spent a lot on this knowledge and i have no remorse..

From various parts of our conversations I've come to see that you want to lose weight but you dont because a lot of your time is spent in this stuff. You want to be progressing career wise but dont because you spend your time and money on this.

From previous parts of our conversations , you consider that fatness is the most important thing in my life …I assure you it is not…There is something else (it is out of scope of this discussion..but what the hell..you are already going out of discussion by leaving Emoto and all of a sudden pointing on me.) .. so I tell you that the reason I have fatness is that I never gave it the top priority..There are other things in my life which I do consider more important..and if you trust my conversation with other people, then let me tell you that I once told my Guru (prof Moiz) that I am not losing weight cause I realize that I do not consider it very important…He answered me that I should apply some techniques to make it appear as the most important thing.. though , he added, that if you are happy with it , live with it…I also know a guy who has achieved a very high spiritual status but is double the size of me… slimness is not at all as important for him…I agree that there are health risks involved with fatness…I am not saying that one should remain fat…its just that it at the moment does not appear as my top priority.. A fat guy who is happy with his life is a million times better than a slim , smart ,handsome and **** guy who is not happy..

…The reason you think that fatness is important for me is that it is one thing that I make fun of a lot..(you know..my own self is the biggest source of fun for me)…

About my career progress: … Do you fail to see that I recently left a job where I was earning more to a job where I am earning less.. only because its offers a better career...but whatever..career too is not THE MOST IMPORTANT thing in my life...I want to live a happy life..and you have not heard of what I say about my previous job where I was getting more by doing less… and you have not ever heard of what I say about my satisfaction level now that I switched job..perhaps reading my earlier posts (which I started during the job switching time) may help you…


There is a time when one needs to look around and evaluate what is holding him back in life, and drop it like it never existed. Tell me this, do either me or Bodi still prefer games over advancement in life?

I don’t know about what you guys prefer…let me just make claims on me ..I do give preference to advancement in life… …. Offcourse you saying this because you have different parameters to define “Advancement in life”…Your idea of having advancement in life might be getting lot of money , enjoying a very good designation etc. etc.. For me the idea is to BE HAPPY with whatever you have.... i want to remain happy even without having much.. (Reminds me of a one liner by bodi….I am happy and I must remain happy)...Its not that i am deliberately trying to be prefer spiritual thing on life..its just that i am prioriting things that are important to make me happy... I dont believe that a good career can keep me happy all my life..

And btw I believe that I was hired in my current company because for the first time in my life I had done NO TECHNICAL STUDY and only SPIRITUAL PREPARATION for the interview..and I was selected even though I have a EE background and they hire CS guys.. Offcourse, you can consider this as a mere coincidence.. I can go into further detals if you are interested…but this is one thing that i strongly call my success...

What kind of spirituality inhibits a person's personal life? What is the difference between your tablighi jamaats gasht and making you lose ICI mails and these tapes and meditations and 15000 rupee conferences?

What kind of spirituality is so corporate, so manufactured, so marketed, so prepackaged into nice little consumer boxes?


These are just derogatory remarks.so I am ignoring them.. But I know about research organization that ask for MONEY …They ask for money to get registered WHY????.. ..Knowledge has become commercial..Its not the problem of spiritual knowledge only..Its the knowledge of everything…Be it spiritual ...be it technical papers...

You are supposed to be a free man, free from anything that enslaves you. IF you have control over this, IF you can give this up and focus on other things in your life that absolutely need your focus, and IF this is not hampering your career and health, I would have no objection to it, nor would I write so much.

Yeah.. a guy who is so materialist that he considers CAREER and MONEY the most important things in life is asking me to be a free man… Let me be clear the real important problem of my life (description is out of scope .it has been shared with only few people) can not be solved by a good career and money.. and..errr…Just to give you an example…how can you ever make a person’s idea about God’s existence by giving him lots of money and good career..Can you?? (Clarification: God’s existence is not my real big problem)

As far as my health is concerned , my office job is whats making me fat..

But I dont see it that way. I see you held hostage to this. And I dont think one has an indefinite time in life.

And how do I consider it as any help..when you don’t tell me a way out ….. just telling me that you don’t like something wont be of much help to me…I understand that there is no indefinite time in life…so what is your idea about it..should I devote myself completely to money and career advancement….or should I enjoy my life by learning thing I want to learn…and by remaining happy with whatever I already have.. ..


If you want to talk more about me..we can...and we should as it helps me more than it helps you..but I just want to stay on the current thing..the Dr. Emoto thing…the last few things can be discussed…We can talk about it but for now I prefer to stay closer to the main topic of discussion…

CONVERSTAION WITH RAZA ENDS


THE LAST FOUR PARAs..

Our discussion started on your objection : I cite it

I disagree with you on key aspects though, foremost that you are too easy a believer, and thereby you undermine your own quest by taking whichever spiritual door shown to you without really questioning anything.


You blame that its me who believes things too easily.. In this course of discussion I have seen you believing in thing that you already wanted to believe…I have always been a skeptic to all my spiritual things myself.. and I look at it in a neutral manner…and I like to discuss it in a neutral manner. ..you seem to have a belief that these things are false.. you are not seeing these things neutrally.. All the objection that you had on Emoto’s experiment was that he had not done any peer reviews…something which by its definition is just expected and not required..that Abdul Salam thing turned out to the rescue ... My god, people are getting noble prizes without peer reviews...something that you hold so dear..

And this course of discussion also shows the your approach and mine approach to trust is similar.. Its just that you don’t believe at all…I , on the other hand, might be a believer but I am still looking at these things in a neutral manner…I keep looking at things..to verify them…cause I think you have to do things in order to verify wether they are wrong or not.. Just reading on some big words against something is not enough (this comes from a notice on your statement..that silva is nothing but “cold reading”.. I have done silva..it has nothing to do with the cold reading. .the teacher there never ever told us anything about us ..let alone any cold reading..you should have atleast read about Silva or atleast cold reading)..

I usually try to have my own experiences and my own opinions…I don’t want to waste my life on copying and pasting…so I go out to have my own interaction with of all the things that I want to learn.. and I guess that’s what a research is.. If at any time later, I decide that all these things are wrong (though at present I don’t feel like it as I am currently successes after a lapse of so many years) I will still have the satisfaction that it was ME who proved it to me....not a copy and paste of somebody’s else writing…and I guess that’s what makes me a researcher..